Delayed Flights and Holding Patterns

March 18th, 2016 by hana

Holding Pattern
the flight path maintained by an aircraft awaiting permission to land.

Our flight back to Manila last Wednesday was delayed for almost four hours. The congested runway traffic in the NAIA was causing flight clearances to be delayed. And even if our plane has landed in Cebu, we couldn’t board it because even if we fly, there’d be no space to land it in Manila.

I won’t talk about the past for so much has happened. But for a long while my plane has been in a holding pattern. Maybe until now, actually. I have been stuck in a “zone”, much like having my hands tied up in a bondage. I made myself believe I can’t do things. I have limited myself by my invisible fears and self-doubt and have pushed myself down in the dark.

I don’t want to stay in the dark anymore. My plane needs to land for now. I need to release the baggages I carry and refuel. I need a new flight plan and destination. I need to have direction.

This is a start. I have attempted a lot of restarts in the past, but there’s no limit in trying. So I’m fastening my seat belt and getting ready for landing. It may not be smooth, but a little bump in the road never hurt.

Sa Wakas

March 20th, 2013 by hana

It’s been a while. A long while.

I’ve ignored this blog for so long, that I’ve forgotten my password already. I’ve decided today (after much reflection) to try writing back some life into this old, dusty blog of mine. But I know it wouldn’t be easy to do this again so I’ll just start by sharing something which literally describes what’s on my mind right now…Sa Wakas(It is a musical inspired by the songs of Sugarfree, my favorite Pinoy band. It will have a limited run this April 2013 at the Peta Theater and tickets are now selling. I should buy ours soon and enjoy it with other Sugarfree-fan friends).

Sa wakas (Finally!), I’m ending my blog hiatus. As to how long I can keep this up, I wouldn’t know for sure. All I know is that I suddenly had the urge to write again, or at least felt the need to have a healthy distraction from the other things I do — work work, house work, and other work — hehe. Smile I hope the motivation keeps up, as I have a lot to write about, like our wonderful wedding, living in Marikina, and taking care of our seven (and more soon) lovable cats.

Well, that’s it for now. Excuse me as I go cook dinner. Smile

Thumbs up!

September 22nd, 2011 by hana

I apologize to my non-existent readers for the wait. Razz It’s been a year since I have written and posted something in my blog, but I’m happy to finally break this blog’s silence with good news. Smile

Markku and I met in October 2006, during my first corporate job as an HR practitioner in an IT Company in Ortigas. It was lunchbreak to be exact, when I met the man who would change my life bigtime. Noon pa man, pasaway na sya. He came into the pantry strutting in his rubber shoes, when I first saw him. Though our employees were free to dress casually on Fridays, rubber shoes were still an exception. I was the new HR girl, and he was breaking the rules, so after being introduced by friends I told him, “Sir, bawal po ang shoes nyo”. He then started to make excuses to justify his wearing the “forbidden” rubber shoes to the office,  to which my only reply was, “kahit na po, bawal pa rin yan”.

But despite that awkward first meeting, by some twist of fate, the universe still conspired to bring us together.

We’ve been a couple for four years now, and friends have been asking us when we would be tying the knot. We’re both really not in a hurry, since we know the realities of our lives too well. But during the past couple of months, we have been discussing about settling down more frequently than before. And since we talk about getting married so casually at times, I wasn’t really expecting to receive any formal proposal from him anymore. But I guess, good things happen to those who don’t expect — too much! haha Grin

He proposed to me on a trip to Baguio. With some of our closest friends with us, he told me it was the perfect time to do it. I was so sleepy that evening because of the tiring week prior our trip, the early ride up to Baguio, and the prenup shoot we did for our friends that afternoon. But I was alerted by the sound of Jonas playing the guitar and singing U2’s All I Want Is You, one of our favorite songs.

I had a different thought in mind while listening to the song, when Markku suddenly approached me with this funny look in his face. I smiled and told him, “alam ko na ang sasabihin mo”. I remember seeing an urgent expression in his eyes like he was scared and excited at the same time.  I repeatedly told him I knew what he was going to tell me,  not knowing what was really going to happen next.

He then knelt down beside me holding my hands, and I saw him take something out of his pocket. At this point, things were happening faster than my mind was processing it. Smile He opened the box and I saw a ring! Out of shock I covered my face with a blanket, trying to understand if things were really happening.  He pulled the blanket away from my head, and saw him tear up as I also start to cry.

All I remember now is that surreal exchange between us, the countless batoks I gave him while giggling and looking at his eyes. Parang kami lang ang tao sa kwarto bigla. When he asked me his question, I just nodded my head as my heart said yes to this man who wanted to make me his wife. He slowly slipped the ring on my finger, and all I can say after that was — “kasya!” Grin

It’s been a week since that eventful night, and I am still in cloud nine. It feels warm and fuzzy inside everytime I remember what happened, and I keep replaying it in my mind. We’re now in a different chapter in our lives, and though we haven’t started with any planning yet, I know that things could only get better after this. Smile

So to the only man I loved and will ever love, thank you for giving me such a wonderful memory. I look forward to that day when we’ll be happier than now. I can’t wait! Smile

Lessons learned from Despicable Me

September 21st, 2010 by hana

Sometimes we live our lives trying to prove ourselves to other people. We try our best to please others, only to get hurt by high expectations (of others and our own) that are simply not achievable.
I wish that like Gru, I will reach that turning point in my life, where I will find and realize what will truly make me happy. Smile


June 7th, 2010 by hana

Star Star “Tonight I’m gonna wish upon a star I never wished upon before” Star Star

— Star, Bryan Adams

Good night world! Smile

Warming Up

June 6th, 2010 by hana

It’s been a while since I wrote something here. The changes happening the past few months compels me to write again.  For how many months I have neglected, almost abandoned, this piece of cyberspace — a friend that always accepted me for what I wanted to say, without any judgement.

So hello dear blog, we meet again. Smile

Wisdom from “What The Duck”

January 11th, 2010 by hana

A very useful and funny tip from What The Duck comic strip by Aaron Johnson.

…fake it ’til you make it. Smile

In my case, one major thing I need to fake is confidence. I need to develop the ability to not panic (or at least keep it all in), as that usually results to less focus, and makes my hands more jelly (than they usually are). Palagi tuloy ako nasisigawan ng “boss” ko Razz

So if resolution number 1 is to believe, then resolution number 2 is to believe even more. Smile


December 31st, 2009 by hana

2009 is about to come to an end, and after a whole day of  contemplating I know just what I need for the new year. Smile


konting bilib pa sa sarili. Grin

I’ll quote a line from the movie “A Cinderella Story” and baseball legend Babe Ruth…

“Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game.”

So in gratitude for all the blessings I have received this year, I look forward to giving back to life more this coming 2010. And it all starts with a little self love and more faith. Smile

Have a wonderful, happy, sparkling new 2010 everyone! Smile


October 23rd, 2009 by hana

“Count your blessings, name them one by one, and it will surprise you what the Lord has done.”

I am thankful for one more year of blessings, both obvious and disguised.

This coming year, I look forward with much hope, as I challenge myself to go beyond a boundary I have never crossed before…naks!

Happy Birthday to me. Smile

Panic Attacks

October 16th, 2009 by hana

A discrete period of intense fear or discomfort…
(from DSM IV)

…if I show at least four of the criterion/symptoms listed below this category of a psychological disorder then I might be having a panic attack. But then again, my Abnormal Psychology professor would always recommend having internal and external validation of data before concluding or labeling anything as a psych case.

Great. Now I’m babbling…

It’s 12 midnight (as of my writing) and I’m leaving for Cebu tomorrow. Flight is at 10:15 am, but I don’t even have a single piece of item packed for the trip. I’m doomed!

I’ve been stressed for the past few months, helping organize this year’s Philippine Blog Awards. Don’t get me wrong, I love the fact that I am helping, but sometimes, my worrywart freak of a self doesn’t do me good…and it’s a nightmare for the pangga. Razz

Ironically, this is the time i feel like writing on my blog. I just probably need to rant this off.

Oh, and just to share, this is what’s been running through my mind lately:

buttons and threads


I’ll get going now. Smile